Ash Wednesday 2019

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An excerpt from C. S. Lewis to begin the Lenten season…

Every Christian would agree that a man’s spiritual health is exactly proportional to his love for God. But man’s love for God, from the very nature of the case, must always be very largely, and must often be entirely, a Need-love. This is obvious when we implore forgiveness for our sins or support in our tribulations. But in the long run it is perhaps even more apparent in our growing—for it ought to be growing—awareness that our whole being by its very nature is one vast need; incomplete, preparatory, empty yet cluttered, crying out for Him who can untie things that are now knotted together and tie up things that are still dangling loose. I do not say that man can never bring to God anything at all but sheer Need-love. Exalted souls may tell us of a reach beyond that. But they would also, I think, be the first to tell us that those heights would cease to be true Graces, would become Neo-Platonic or finally diabolical illusions, the moment a man dared to think that he could live on them and henceforth drop out the element of need. “The highest,” says the Imitation, “does not stand without the lowest.” It would be a bold and silly creature that came before its Creator with the boast “I’m no beggar. I love you disinterestedly.” Those who come nearest to a Gift-love for God will next moment, even at the very same moment, be beating their breasts with the publican and laying their indigence before the only real Giver. And God will have it so. He addresses our Need-love: “Come unto me all ye that travail and are heavy-laden,” or, in the Old Testament, “Open your mouth wide and I will fill it.”

Thus one Need-love, the greatest of all, either coincides with or at least makes a main ingredient in man’s highest, healthiest, and most realistic spiritual condition. A very strange corollary follows. Man approaches God most nearly when he is in one sense least like God. For what can be more unlike than fullness and need, sovereignty and humility, righteousness and penitence, limitless power and a cry for help? This paradox staggered me when I first ran into it; it also wrecked all my previous attempts to write about love. When we face it, something like this seems to result.

We must distinguish two things which might both possibly be called “nearness to God.” One is likeness to God. God has impressed some sort of likeness to Himself, I suppose, in all that He has made. Space and time, in their own fashion, mirror His greatness; all life, His fecundity; animal life, His activity. Man has a more important likeness than these by being rational. Angels, we believe, have likenesses which Man lacks: immortality and intuitive knowledge. In that way all men, whether good or bad, all angels including those that fell, are more like God than the animals are. Their natures are in this sense “nearer” to the Divine Nature. But, secondly, there is what we may call nearness of approach. If this is what we mean, the states in which a man is “nearest” to God are those in which he is most surely and swiftly approaching his final union with God, vision of God and enjoyment of God. And as soon as we distinguish nearness-by-likeness and nearness-of-approach, we see that they do not necessarily coincide. They may or may not.

Perhaps an analogy may help. Let us suppose that we are doing a mountain walk to the village which is our home. At mid-day we come to the top of a cliff where we are, in space, very near it because it is just below us. We could drop a stone into it. But as we are no cragsmen we can’t get down. We must go a long way round; five miles, maybe. At many points during that detour we shall, statically, be farther from the village than we were when we sat above the cliff. But only statically. In terms of progress we shall be far “nearer” our baths and teas.

Since God is blessed, omnipotent, sovereign and creative, there is obviously a sense in which happiness, strength, freedom and fertility (whether of mind or body), wherever they appear in human life, constitute likenesses, and in that way proximities, to God. But no one supposes that the possession of these gifts has any necessary connection with our sanctification. No kind of riches is a passport to the Kingdom of Heaven.

At the cliff’s top we are near the village, but however long we sit there we shall never be any nearer to our bath and our tea. So here; the likeness, and in that sense nearness, to Himself which God has conferred upon certain creatures and certain states of those creatures is something finished, built in. What is near Him by likeness is never, by that fact alone, going to be any nearer. But nearness of approach is, by definition, increasing nearness. And whereas the likeness is given to us—and can be received with or without thanks, can be used or abused — the approach, however initiated and supported by Grace, is something we must do. Creatures are made in their varying ways images of God without their own collaboration or even consent. It is not so that they become sons of God. And the likeness they receive by sonship is not that of images or portraits. It is in one way more than likeness, for it is union or unity with God in will; but this is consistent with all the differences we have been considering. Hence, as a better writer has said, our imitation of God in this life — that is, our willed imitation as distinct from any of the likenesses which He has impressed upon our natures or states — must be an imitation of God incarnate: our model is the Jesus, not only of Calvary, but of the workshop, the roads, the crowds, the clamorous demands and surly oppositions, the lack of all peace and privacy, the interruptions. For this, so strangely unlike anything we can attribute to the Divine life in itself, is apparently not only like, but is, the Divine life operating under human conditions. (Introduction to ‘The Four Loves’)

The Last Box

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Opening up my final package of Martin Marquis strings in the old-school cardboard box packaging that was standard up until a few years ago. I do thankfully have a fairly decent supply of the (now discontinued) Marquis strings in the newer envelope packaging, thanks to some bulk purchases over the past 2-3 years. The Marquis strings start out pretty bright when they’re first put on the guitar, but mellow out to a really nice, warm tone over time.

Why I’m Non-Partisan

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For many years, both during my time in Nebraska and my time in Kansas, I have declined to affiliate with any political party.

The primary reason is that I think both of the major political parties are power-hungry, craven, and profoundly unworthy of my loyalty or my support.

But not far behind is this: I’ve become convinced that – at least in our current day – party loyalty shifts peoples’ focus away from bigger, eternal principles to temporal, worldly, often embarrassingly ridiculous pissing contests, and in the process makes otherwise intelligent people extraordinarily vapid.

Much has been written and said about how we’ve become a nation of tribes. I may be overly optimistic, but I remain convinced that outside of the extremes – the die-hard Trump apologists who lack any moral underpinnings, or the AOC crowd who have been so tragically failed by our education system that they lack even the slightest understanding of human nature (or math) – most people still could find a fair amount of common ground. (At least for the time being).

But tribal loyalty leads people to believe that they have to defend the indefensible – or at least sit on their hands and remain quiet about the indefensible – when they would undoubtedly be calling it out on the other tribe. It leads people to sacrifice their integrity for something they’ve convinced themselves is the “greater good” – which is precisely the way Satan operates. And in doing so they voluntarily snuff out a little piece of their soul (also much to Satan’s delight).

It’s emblematic of our postmodern times – truth is either welcomed or deflected/rejected based upon whether it’s politically convenient, or whether or not that tribe wants it to be true. And it’s a practice that many Christians on both sides have embraced – explicitly rejecting the major premise of the bible and Christianity in doing so.

And most of the media – including cable news, social media, and talk radio – only serves to make peoples’ shift in focus away from the eternal, and towards the temporal, even worse.

A case in point – in this week’s Michael Cohen testimony/controversy, despite all the partisan squawking, there is no moral high ground. It was agonizingly clear, from the minute he hit the spotlight a couple of years ago, what kind of person Michael Cohen is. But in 2017, people on the right defended him as an unfairly maligned, and trusted, Trump advisor, while people on the left (correctly) characterized him as a shifty, dishonest, immoral clown. Now in the 2019, people on the left are characterizing him as a brave hero, almost comparable to John Dean of the Watergate era, while people on the right are (correctly) characterizing him as a shifty, dishonest, immoral clown. If the parties were reversed, everyone’s position would be as well. And let’s not forget that what really launched Cohen into the national spotlight was the payoff to Stormy Daniels, and the fact that Trump committed adultery with a porn star while his wife was nursing their newborn. So in the case of Cohen, there is no “winning” side. Everything – and everyone – is terrible.

And that gets us to the crux of partisan loyalty. Whether we’re talking about Bill Clinton or Donald Trump, character matters until being consistent on that position damages my tribe, at which point character suddenly doesn’t mean jack sh*t. This is especially distressing to see among people who call themselves Christians, because it makes a mockery of scripture, of God, and of the reason Jesus came to redeem us. And it makes the gospel a joke to the perishing (which, I would argue, increasingly includes people in both parties who are utterly convinced they’re in the God Club).

Having a position on issues doesn’t require party fealty. In fact, I would argue that being a citizen of heaven requires the rejection of it.

Be willing to call out the wrong – and stand up for the right – even if it means potentially damaging the worldly power and reputation of your preferred political party. Because truth and character matter regardless of political affiliation. And because there’s Someone whose power and reputation should be of infinitely more concern to you than a political party destined for the dustbin of history.

So, as has become a common refrain from me, I urge everyone to step away from the scrum of cable news, social media, talk radio, etc. Spend that time with God’s word instead. Now more than ever, we need people whose hearts – and heads – are based on eternity, and are seeking a wisdom higher than Rachel Maddow or Rush Limbaugh.

A Partial Capitulation

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Folks who have known me for a while know that a year or so ago I ditched my Android smartphone. The reasons were many, and had some analogs to the reasons I dumped my Facebook account in late 2018, but one of the primary reasons was the Pavlovian instinct to reach for and check my phone every few minutes, in some pathetic attempt to find a sense of meaning and validation among the feeds and notifications.

I eventually landed on the LG Envy (picked up via eBay), a 3G “feature phone” that was designed for calling and texting. It pulls its weight for the most part, but after becoming an elder at church last year and getting included on groups texts on a regular basis, a couple of shortcomings started to become apparent. One is that it simply will not open/read some of the multimedia text replies from other elders using smartphones (and from some of my other friends). The other is that it only has a memory capacity for 50 or so text messages, meaning I have to continually go in and delete old messages so that I can continue to receive new ones.

So I searched for a newer vintage feature phone (with a keyboard of some kind for texting) that might solve those issues. Sadly, there was none to be found. Newer models were either flip phones (without texting keyboards), or smartphones (which make up 95%+ of the more recent phone offerings).

After watching the documentary ‘The Creepy Line’ late last year, I deepened my resolve to steer clear of Google as much as possible, and that includes the Android operating system. So a few weeks ago I capitulated and picked up an old iPhone 4 for $30 off of eBay. It’s old enough (vintage 2011) that there are virtually no apps in Apple’s app store that can run on it, and it’s only 3G, so it fits the bill as a calling and texting device.

The good news is that it works fine for reading multimedia text replies and making/receiving calls. The bad news is that I discovered this week that Verizon (whose network PagePlus – my provider – resells) is dropping support for all 3G phones at the end of 2019, in order to free up the current 3G wireless frequencies for 5G services.

So I guess later this year I’ll need to pick up an older 4G/LTE device. At this point I’m guessing I’d probably go with an iPhone SE, since I’d prefer something relatively small, and I don’t need the latest/fastest model in order to call and text. I sorely wish some manufacturer would step up and make a simple calling/texting device with a QWERTY keyboard for the 4G/LTE network. Though it’s admittedly a niche market, my gut tells me it’s big enough to support the design and manufacturing costs for such a device.

Apropos

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This week’s appointed prayer from ‘The Divine Hours‘ hits home:

Most loving Father, whose will it is for us to give thanks for all things, to fear nothing but the loss of you, and to cast all our care on you who cares for us: Preserve me from faithless fears and worldly anxieties, that no clouds of this mortal life may hide from me the light of that love which is immortal, and which you have manifested to us in your Son Jesus Christ our Lord; who lives and reigns with you, in the unity of the Holy Spirit, one God, now and for ever. Amen.

The Renewing of Your Mind

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For the past (almost) 6 years, I’ve had a membership at a website called christianaudio.com. It’s an audiobook website focusing on titles centered around the Christian faith. The membership is $14.95/month, for which you get 4 “credits” in your account. The credits can then be spent on books as you like. (You can also purchase books outright if you’ve used up all your available credits). Depending on how long they are and how new they are, books tend to range from $7.98 (or 2 credits) to $14.98 (or 4 credits). Some short books are $4.98 (or 1 credit). Credits can be saved up and accumulated over multiple months if desired, and there’s also an option to purchase 8 additional credits for $24.95 at any time. In addition, there’s a free download each month, which might be a newer book being promoted by its publisher, or an older classic such as ‘The Confessions of St. Augustine’.

If one practices patience, there are some pretty good deals to be had. There are regular promotions where books on a certain topic (e.g., the reformation), or from a certain author, are offered at half price. And every June and December, there’s a semi-annual half-price sale on nearly everything.

I’ll admit that the site features some titles popular among the evangelical subculture that, like the evangelical subculture, often have little if anything to do with actual, biblical Christianity. But there are plenty of solid theological and biblically orthodox titles to be had.

One of the things I appreciate most about christianaudio.com is that the books are in a standard, non-DRM’d, MP3 format, so once you download them, they’re yours, and you can listen to them wherever and however you want. There are apps available for streaming your purchases, but I much prefer storing and listening to them locally. That approach also provides insurance, allowing you to have the books backed up locally in case christianaudio.com ever goes out of business.

I mostly listen in the car, usually copying 2-3 books at a time to a re-writeable CD. I’ve found that it’s far more edifying to my head and my heart than the radio (whether that be classic rock, talk radio, or Christian radio). Sometimes I’ll listen at home as I’m cooking or cleaning, instead of having the TV on.

As believers in – and followers of – Jesus, we’re to be growing in knowledge, in wisdom, and in maturity, becoming more like Him each day. The world would pull us away from that end. But as it says in Romans 2:12, “Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.”

The Disappearance of a Classic

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Sometimes, it’s good to stock up.

Some time back, I did a bulk order of my favorite acoustic guitar strings – the Martin Marquis (light gauge). Musician’s Friend had them for $4.19 per set, which was a pretty good price.

I recently discovered that Martin has replaced the Marquis line of strings with a new “Authentic Acoustic” line, and at a price that’s 79% higher. Wonderful. I’m grateful I still have a few sets of the Marquis. One seller on Amazon is listing them for $25 per set now. Sheesh.

I did find one site that still shows a stock of the Marquis strings for $4.49, so I think I’m going to figure out how to squeeze my budget and pick up a few more sets while the getting’s good.